i would breathe life
if i thought i should. instead i watch, play movies, give sips of water, draw up morphine every two hours, and wait for the first missed breath, and the last. because i love him more than life, more than the body his spirit has been tethered to these five years. he finally fell into a restless sleep after 3am, crying out, "no, i don't want to go until the day after tomorrow." this promise i make to him, we will not go anywhere until the day after tomorrow, and he continues to sleep.
joe is sleeping after his shift. i know joey will wake up soon. i hope that he will not be feverish, as he has been these past two days. i hear the rain outside the window, know that behind the garage my young vegetable sprouts will be pushing up even more, that isaiah's sunflowers will be reaching for the coming sun.
as always, we will continue to update
posted by Jen @ 5:27 AM
8 Comments:
We watch with you, and pray with you Jen, Joe and Joey. We struggle to say - no more, little Isaiah - "the day after tomorrow" will bring peace and joy and rest and you will live in our hearts to share all of that because we feel left behind and you have always been so generous. We love you! GGV
it seems we are so far away, but the distance is no match for the love, thoughts and peace we send.
the love of a brother, father and mother; the whispers, sounds of your voices, feel of your gentle hands and hugs; the love of his family. these i have faith, and am certain, will persist and be carried with him.
know that you are surrounded by love, and hands that are here for anything you may need. praying for peace as you approach the coming days. we love you all so much.
cole
You are in out thoughts and prayers. Peace and comfort be with you all.
Although distance may seperate us we feel so near to you. Our thoughts are constantly consumed with the ups and downs of these past few weeks. Isaiah is surrounded by such love and afterall isn't that the greatest gift you can give.
Wishing you love, hoping for peace, and strength to get you through the "day after tomorrow"
We love you guys,
Aunt Karen
Uncle Rob
Born into a World Knowing
This will happen
Oh god we say just give
me a few more
breaths
and don't let it be
terrible
let it be soft
perhaps in someone's
arms, perhaps tasting
chocolate
perhaps
laughing or asking
Is it over already?
or saying not yet.
Not yet
the sky
has at this moment turned
another shade of blue,
and see there a child
still plays
in the fresh snow.
-susan griffin
there is no easiness here. there is no balm, but love. love is not always easy, but when it is not, it is perhaps, all the more important. beautiful and dark.
i heard about your journey from lori. i am in awe and admiration of your family. may you feel the peace of a spirit passing into a world of pure love. your family is surrounded by white light now. believe what your heart whispers to you.
peace love joy
robin
So many things I pray for. For restful sleep for Isaiah, and peace and strength for you, Joe and Joey. I love that little guy, and you all as well.
Take care.
Love
Liz
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